Home for the Holidays!

I'm back in California! 

I love coming home for the holidays to see family and friends. It makes me sad that next year I'll be living in Ohio, by myself for the first time, but I'm looking forward to hosting holiday parties at my apartment and having family and friends come visit just because. Ultimately, even though it's scary, I'm excited to see what's in store for me in the future. Ya girl has big dreams! I'm trying to live a lifestyle people would die for! We all already know I love to shop, but I love to travel too. I mean, who doesn't. I love spontaneous trips to the mountains for hiking or a trip across the world. Being immersed in different cultures is soooo cool. So best believe I'll be saving my merchant in training check for weekend and week getaways. Can we say YAY to starting off with 19 paid days of leave? 

Even though I know adult life is a whole other ball game, I also know that God has equipped me with everything I need to be great! I just need to keep pushing forward and believing in myself. I'll be

uber excited to post on here about my new adventures, new friends, new failures, and most importantly new successes!

All in all, I'm proud of the woman I'm becoming and look forward to seeing how I'll continue to contribute to this world. 

PS: Peep the new emojis! They're too cute!

Peace.

Am I Working Too Hard or Being Lazy?

With all the responsibilities I took on this year, I found myself asking "Do I need a break or am I just being lazy?" I've decide when I'm delusional and everyone keeps asking me if I'm tired, it's time for me to CHILL. Most of the time I do need to take a break, but I'm just too hard on myself. See this habit of mine is a blessing and a curse. As I sit here and contemplate my decision to just "wing" my finance final, I realized I hate being wrong, not completing school work or just down right not caring. I know you're probably thinking "Well duh, that's what you're supposed to be doing which is why you're uncomfortable with not doing it." You see, I'm weird. I hate when I don't get the highest score on a test or pass a class with an A, but I still do just what's required. Which leads me to another commitment I've made to myself, but that's another story. Any who, another questions I ask myself is "Are you only doing just the minimum because it's about things you could care less about or are you just lazy?"

I'm starting to think I'm just honestly afraid of being lazy.

Although people tell me they're proud of me and I've accomplished so much, I'm still not content with my accomplishments. I don't feel like I've done anything AMazing, I just feel mediocre. Which, if I do say so myself, is sad. I have worked hard for several opportunities people would be thankful for and would make an Instagram or Facebook post about, but I just can't. Part of me feels like this is a good thing, but again bad at the same time. 

Let's talk about the bad first. I feel at some point I need to know when to pat myself on he back. It's healthy to praise yourself, but then again not to much. Remain humble.

Now to the good part. This is basically what I've been trying to get to this entire post, lol. I actually like that I'm never satisfied with my accomplishments because that means I'll always keep pushing and trying to top myself. I was watching J. Cole's new documentary, I don't know if that's what you would call it, but he basically was reflecting on what keeps him going and being successful. He said he tries to top himself every album. Although I've heard this piece of advice before, for some reason is resonated with me differently this time. I think it might be because the entire time I was watching the mini docu, I kept saying "Dang, I wish I had their talent." But mid fantasizing, I realized their calling is not my calling and I  need to focus on what I'm good at. 

But what am I good at?

Weekend Recap...So Far

So I'm already slacking 😑  But I'm going to do a recap of the weekend so far so I can fill you all in with my thoughts and outfits of the days.

Wednesday- November 30, 2016

Thursday- December 1, 2016

Friday- December 2, 2016

So, where should I begin? This weekend was exhausting and fun all at the same time. As I rushed to get my last assignments in before the last day of class, I hung out with my amazing amigos. I'm seriously blessed to have a great friend group. We had a very eventful week before having to study for finals. On Thursday I had the pleasure of getting my nails done. You'll have to follow my snapchat to see those up close and personal. Just know GOLD is in! I'm pretty obsessed  with my nails btw.

The next day, World AIDs Day, I volunteered with my linesisters at an event on campus. It's very important to know your status and to wrap it up! Please stay safe people. Following that day, we brought the semester to a close with the All Black Affair hosted by Nxlevel. The all black and all white parties are always so fun! I loved my outfit, but let's talk about how I have learned to beat my face! I'm too hype! A little primer goes a long way. Be on the lookout for more beats, lol. 

Well that is about all that I missed. I'm going to make another post later about my Sunday adventures. So stay tuned!

Peace.